Avan Jogia, the actor and filmmaker known for his role in the Nickelodeon show "Victorious," has launched his second poetry collection titled "Autopsy (of an ex-teen heartthrob)." This collection serves as a retrospective look at his experiences during the early 2010s, when he gained fame alongside other stars like Ariana Grande and Victoria Justice. The book is a compilation of poems drawn from his daily writing practice, some written during the show's airing from 2010 to 2013, and others penned more recently, reflecting deeper insights gained over time.
Jogia, who portrayed Beck on "Victorious," recalls how revisiting his earlier work revealed surprising similarities in voice and emotion between his 17-year-old self and his current persona. He notes that while there was a distinct "teenage rage" in those earlier poems, the underlying feelings resonate with the struggles he faces today. His journey from a teen heartthrob to an adult navigating life's complexities is vividly chronicled through his poetry.
The poems delve into the reality of growing up amidst the superficiality of fame. Jogia expresses the raw, gritty experiences he encountered as a young adult living in Los Angeles—attending drug-fueled parties, dealing with the aftermath of wild nights, and reflecting on both fleeting friendships and isolating fears. He candidly writes about the pressure and fear of feeling as if he had nothing to live for, juxtaposed with the curious feeling of being treated like a nostalgic relic by fans who see him as a remnant of their youth.
Despite this nostalgic perception, Jogia grapples with the discomfort it brings. He describes nostalgia as a "sedative" or a drug, suggesting that people cling to their past for comfort in an uncertain future. In contrast, he reveals that he prefers to focus on the present and the future, only reflecting on his past through his literary work. His first book, "Mixed Feelings: Poems and Stories," which was published in 2019, explored themes of race, identity, and family experiences, further establishing his literary voice.
Now at 33, Jogia recognizes the growth he has experienced since his early acting days, stating that his life has become richer, more fulfilling, and increasingly artistically satisfying. He acknowledges the contrasting state of the world, noting that while his internal life has improved, the external environment has faced significant challenges. This duality marks a profound evolution in his perspective on fame, personal growth, and the complexities of adulthood.
In addition to his writing endeavors, Jogia continues to work in the entertainment industry, directing the 2023 film "Door Mouse" and set to star alongside Dove Cameron in the upcoming Prime Video series "Obsession." This ongoing work behind and in front of the camera underscores his multifaceted career while also highlighting the tension between his public persona and private life.
Ultimately, Jogia's "Autopsy (of an ex-teen heartthrob)" is more than just a collection of poems; it is a deep introspection into his past, revealing the layers of an individual emerging from the shadows of their youthful fame into a complex, more grounded identity. By expressing his thoughts and feelings through poetry, he invites readers to join him on this reflective journey, bridging the gap between the nostalgia of his past and the richness of his present.
